President Donald Trump was reportedly shocked and embarrassed to learn Tuesday that his Twitter account has been public this whole time.

“I never wanted anyone to see this stuff,” Trump reportedly said to advisors in private. “I was just ranting. Sometimes not even that. I was just treating it like a journal.”

Trump then openly wondered if it was too late to go back and delete all his tweets he was embarrassed by. Advisors told him though he already had thousands – sometimes hundreds of thousands – of RTs on most of them. The president, several sources say, was mortified.

“People probably think I’m crazy. And dumb. Look at all these grammatical errors.”